7 july 2004

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Today is my first day in Ecquaria Technologies.. the second company of the attachment.. after the incident last week... waited since thursday.. went back to school the last 2 days.. nowhere to go lah....

we r being toured ard wif yiin b4 the sharon came.. when she came, she tok us ard oso.. den we were given a laptop each.. each u noe.. nt like previously.. mi and lin haf to share a pc.. kaoz... aniway.. our supervisor came and briefed on wat we r supposed to do.. we r onli supposed to test cases on the assignment and report to them wat the errors.. smethng like wat yilin was doing..onli she was doing abt breast cancer, while mine on wat dental centre... whahaha...

at the moment i saw the staff here r quite friendly.. from wat i see lah.. maybe they maybe change.. who noes.. besides us, there r few more tp students here b4 we came... yilin, sal, yingbao, yen, joshua, and a malay gal i 4gt her name.. yilin they all and the nus students r in a room, joshua and the malay gal in another.. while mi and lin in another room.. i saw fuili and wing hong here oso... hahhaa... i will update more on here as we go on.. still gt 3 more mths.. can slowly update... hahah

on monday,5 july, i went to nick hse after i accompanied ry, zy they all for their lecture.... he haf moved to the street opposite... a 20-storey newly built hses.... he lived on level 12.. bedok ppl like to live on level 12 i noticed.. zq oso.. he once said tat ppl living in bedok like to live on level 12.. duno true anot.. hahah... his hse is clean... he haf a room to himself.. while his 2 sisters share a room.. but his sisters' room is cleaner than his room..wa piangz.... guys r like tat lah.. hahaha.. oops... no offence ar... realli ma.. my brother oso like tat.. tat my conclusion...  tuesday nothing realli happen lah... juz went to school and looked for ry they all... den after tat saw meiyen and tok to her lor... so long nv tok to her le...she haf grow thinner le....  after tat she went to her lessons le... den i gone home lor... after tat went to the ndp meeting.. at the meeting...  the ICs showed us the video which is taken on sunday.. they showed us our mistakes... they oso keep saying tat blk A2 haf kept their line when moving to transformation... haha..... tat's ours grp... they oso say A2 YWDs attendence on sunday was full ... yeah... but cheng cheng was nt wif us... she was at her hometown looking after her mum.. whom was nt quite well.... den the seow feng was wif us besides patrick... the other time, cheng cheng was nt wif us, seow feng oso took over... he was the onli trainer handsome among all the trainers... but he's married.. i saw his wedding photos at nick hse.. his wife is beautiful, called tiffany... but nvm i will pretend i nv see his photos.. cuz he the motivation for mi to attend the trainings every weekdays training... cuz i will always feel so tired... so i will like tink can see him.. so i go... every training i can see him... i will feel so happy... haha.... hua chi rite... but i like.... hhaha.. juz admire onli..so is nt break up ppl family.. haha. say until so serious....

9 july 2004

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Today is my third day here... here doing nothing... except to read materials given to us.. to noe better abt the system.. wa lao.. the materials given were so thick.. i fell aslp while reading ytd.. oops... haha.... we here gt no internet.. so spent whole day here doing nothing, listening to music, playing games, '  reading materials ' (haha)...

den ytd i suggested to jot down the number of frds we haf... nothing to do ma.. so find something to do.... so mi and lin type down the number of frds we haf.. including frds from primary till now,  to working collegues.... oso included frds we known outside..

den i realised tat i indeed haf many frds i noe from primary school to now... but when i haf problems or down, i realised e numbers of frds i turned to is onli a little bit.. including jinming, zhenyu, yilin they all.... 13 out of so many.. some didnt even contact liao... some i seen them in TP.. luckily i still gt see kevin donald, my primary school frd.... after primary sch, nv see each other le.. gt a time when i met shuqin i saw him at the mrt station, i gt his number and found out tat he went into TP same as mi... from tat time sometimes we even went home together.. haha.. so gd to meet up wif old frds... so till now, we still msg each other.. i remembered after he gt his licence and his own bike, he rode mi home.. haha...

i once told shuqin tat frds r important to mi... partner can onli accompany mi for quite some time... for short, 3 mths.. for long, give u as more as 3 yrs... whereas frds can accompany mi my whole life.... frds r there when i am down, when haf problems... den she say cannot like tat say, if like tat tink, den u will nt put in effort in every relationships... i didnt say i will nt put in effort in relationships ma.... once i in relationship i will always put in my best effort... but i still realised frds r more impt than life partners.... maybe my tinkin will change when i meet one...

but e longest relationship i haf is abt 9 mths... is the greatest suffering i haf and the most hurting period i haf... my wounds oso took the longest time to heal... but is oso the most effort i put in... cuz i realli like the guy tat time... tis guy we broke and patch.... b4 we went into poly, we ended our relationship... den in yr 2 we patch back again.... tat time our relationship lasted abt 2 mths... den broke off again... till now although my wounds haf recovered abit here and there, when i see him, i still remembered how he hurt mi.. is not say i hate him, but i shld say i shld thx him.. if nt for him, i tink i will nv grow up/stronger.... so till now we r still the best of best frds... no matter wat happen, he still there for mi.... he can be a veri gd frd but maybe nt a gd lover to mi...

but recently, i juz started to tok to him, cuz bz lah.. he said he regretted breaking up wif mi.. den i said nvm wat, now we r still gd frds wat.... he said, to him, i am more than a gd frd... tons and tons more.. den i kept quiet.... haha... den we oso chatted abt things in the past... chatted till abt 4 the next morning... now to mi, gt gt lor.. dun haf oso nvm cuz i gt alot of frds wat... they r there when i need them... although at times,i wish i haf one to love and be wif mi and sometimes i wish to get back to him, these things need time lah... relationship needs fate lah... if can turn back time, i still wish to go back to the route i took previously... i still wish to be wif him....

abt another guy who come and console mi after i broke off wif tis guy, i tink i really like him at first, but when he started to bluff mi, i began to lose hope on him slowly.. i oso duno wat happen when he suddenly tried to avoid mi.... tat when i haf gave up on him... i took a long time to give him up.. so now i am sort of free from relationship troubles... haha.. but i HOPe i wont so carefree for so long.. although i keep saying single rocks the world, i am a gal after all, i still need a guy to care abt mi.. tat wat a gal wan ba... i wan 2 be "small woman"... haha...

haiz... tok so long on tis.. abit siaoz ar... who call mi nothing to do now... no internet... no other programs other than the 4 programs installed in tis laptop.... sianz... really nothing to do leh..... sianz leh.......

12 july 2004

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hihi...today is my fourth day here.. monday morning i am the first to reach here... den come here le nothing to do again lor... haiz... saturday was our NDCC vetting.... all ndp participants were all here... including the hosts like: sharon, gurmit, etc.. and oso kit chen.... she sing on behalf of lin jun jie... we had our costumes changed upon reaching there... everyone was wearing the slivery tops and bottoms.. so nice... other grps oso haf nice costumes... den we had our dinner...after tat we practiced our dance steps... before going in... we oso haf our light props wif us.. but tat onli for grp A.. haha.... so luckly... finally its our turn le... we ran in... get ready... den the music started... we danced... patrick is my partner.. cuz previously my partner quit cuz of his bz schedule... den florance oso quit cuz of personal reason.. so cheng cheng took her place lor... yeah.. hahah... okies.. back to the topic.. den our item ended... we ran inside, getting ready for grand finale... den we ran in again... when the singapore songs were being put up, seow fong said tat," wow... ppl owe u all money ar.. face pull so long.. haha.." we den started to smile... den swayed wif the music.. the whole thing ended den... but we were being to stay back for another music run... den our trainer gathered us together... he tok to us abt the performance juz now.... he oso informed us abt the costumes... he even suggested tat he went to buy the orange ribbon for us den tuesday den we sew on our costumes.. he is a nice guy... gd trainer oso... after the ndp, our grp tinking to buy present for the two of them, cheng cheng and patrick... i realised patrick is a humourous guy... when i told him i wanted to change the size of my bottom from small to medium, he gave mi a "HUH?? realli mah??" expression... dotz dotz dotz.. wa lao... i remembered oso when i told him he looked very yan dao at a ndp meeting, he said, "really mah... veri yan dao ar.." den he blushed and said thank you.... he realli a nice trainer... past last training was hard on him cuz he had to take care YMDs and YWDs... as cheng cheng haf to go back to her hometown to take care of her mum, who was sick.. when he couldnt handle us, he called seow fong to help him take care of us.. hahah.. okies.. nice chap....... haf a nice time during ndp.. gt alot of frds... nw den i noe tat shu hui is jian fu's sister.. haha.. tis world is so small... haha... he is oso a nice guy... although he always bully mi, he help mi to take my things sometimes.. i can say all our grp members r nice guys and nice gals.. i am glad tat i didnt regretted joining ndp...knowing so many ppl there....  A2, A2, we r the best... A2 rocks.....

okies.. end of ndp.. sunday i went to far east and bugis wif yilin and irene... i bought 4 pairs of dangling earings...a necklace, 1 tee shirt and a watch.... together i spent ard 58.... wow... close to 60 leh... wa lao... so much... okies... but i was quite happy cuz i haf bought a nice necklace which i could wear it on friday.. on tat day, i want to wear nice nice impress ppl there.. haha... i am being appointed as the CIC(campus in charge) leh.. wa lao. so scare... duno can take the stress ma leh... realli scare leh.... if i cannot do the duty well, how?? i dun even noe the gosho leh.. wa lao.. stressed leh...

Wondering ard tis few days

tis few days i have been wondering ard cuz simon ask us to wait for his call see whether he can get us a company tat wan us both... so we went shopping meanwhile after we had meet riffai for lunch on wed (30 june). den on thurday i went to bugis wif my god sister and brother... we went there walking, sitting down for a cup of coffee, etc... one of the nites last wk he called and told us tat we gt a company liao.. the company turned out to be the one yilin is working now... so surprised...

on friday, i asked zy to accompany mi till 1 cuz he having lessons at 2... act he didnt noe i haf been wondering ard.. is he asked mi on the msn.. den i tell him.. he said y didnt i let him noe earlier and y i didnt go find them... i was like "wa lao.. how i noe u al on school.. maybe u all doing fyp leh.." haiz.. den at the void deck,we chatted alot... chatted from school to personal relationship... etc...  toked alot... all crap.. haha...  we spent abt 3 hrs toking crap...haha.. den he went to school.. i went to meet ching hiang to accompany her to dye her hair.... b4 meeting her, i asked zy to bring mi something to eat.. cuz i dun wan to buy anithing as i didnt bring enough money.. haha....

den todae i went to school le.. cuz duno where to wonder.. school is like my second home.. haha... accompany zy to orchard to register his wat sun java cert... he taking the java cert.. a paper which cozt 280.80.... wow.. okies... wif 300+, i can buy lots of things sia.. haha... den went back to school.. met ry they all for lunch.. den accompany them to their lec... wanted to sit beside ry they all but they sitting in the middle... i dun wan to be spotted lah.. so i sat wif gillian they all... after their lec, nick called mi... asked mi where am i.. i tld him tat i went wondering ard.. he asked whether i wan to go his new hse look look.. i was tinking "since i gt nothing to do, y nt" den i meet him lorz.. den reach his hse, besides no bed and pc, the rest like being moved there le.. his sisters r together in a room.. he alone in a room(wah.. so shiok..haha).. we chatted alot....had fun.. he even asked mi who the guy after him.. played checkers b4 he went to meet zhiwei, his frd... of coz he won lah.. but he taught how to play abit...

on thurs nite, he told mi something tat i tink is funny.. he told mi tat he regretted hurting mi.. regretted letting mi cried... i told him it okies.. it over aniway.. we still can be frds ma..  he said to him , he dun tink is over.. he oso said tat we r more than frds.. den i said best of best frds ar.. he said more than tat... hmmmm okies... he said he kept the things from mi till now.. tat y he kept the number we subscribe together.. he oso said tat i actully understand him.. said he didnt really wan to break off... watever duno lah... i told him now at the moment i dun wish to go into relationships and oso get back to him.. cuz i dun wan to get hurt the 3rd time... 2 times r enough... wounds still slowly healing..... but we still can be frds ar... t at wat i told him...

he can be a great frd.... but lover... maybe or maybe nt.. i oso duno.. maybe he changed liao... i oso duno... i leave everythng to fate...

:)

Sad sad... ytd and todae.

ytd was a sad sad day for mi and lin... ytd b4 lunch was ok.. normal.. den we asked seng lit tat whether he needs ani help anot... den he asked us to help him modify the web page.. like changing the size of the image.. etc.. den after lunch the HR personnel asked him over to tok...which i tink they shld be toking abt us.. den he came to us and ask us whether we r going to haf lunch wif our frds... he said "i tot of treating u all lunch".. den i tink abit strange liao.. i tinkmaybe tat our lunch there... i told them, riffai they all, they dun believe...

den she came to us and said tat she noe we r given assignment r nt wat we learnt.. she said is unfair to us lor.. cuz we studied bbm not programming... den she noe we tried liao... she say is nt our fault... den she say therefore she terminated our sip wif them.. she asked us to go back to school to report to simon ngeow... by tat time i wanted to cry le.. but i held back... she kept saying is nt our fault.. maybe is the school mismatch... etc... by the time she went away, i called yilin wat happen... after tat i started to cry le...

lin kept consoling mi.. den riffai saw mi cry oso ask mi to not crying le... den the HR personnel oso came le... aiya.. i tot i can hld back my tears.. but i cant... riffai tot lin was bluffing him.. tot i was juz tired... when he saw mi cried... he was shocked... tat wat he said one... after a while the ppl there said tat maybe i could do something b4 i go lor... i said ok lor.. since i gt nth to do...

den abt 6 i went off le... returned the pass to the HR...went off le... at the bus stop.. riffai said he gonna miz us.. cuz he wll be alone.. den i said there is no sun shine in my life le.. den he laughed.. den i said to him gd oso wat.. no one beat him.. he dun haf to listen to crap.. den he said at least he wont be so boring... wat... haha.. asked him to console mi he said look at his face lor.. since i said b4 tat his face is a joke liao.. haha.. den he told mi alot jokes.. i tink he trying to make mi 4gt the thing happened juz nw... b4 he leave i kept asking him to miz mi.. haha... haiz...

den todae i and lin went to see simon ngeow... told him wat happen.. he listened.. den he said is the school mismatch lah.. den we haf to type report to assure him tat we haf to put in effort for our next company... etc lah and submit to him by todae.. so we stayed in school to type lor...

in school, riffai, ching hiang asked us wat the outcome lor.. i told them lor.. told them tat simon said tat he will help us find another one.. or else we haf to stay in hse le...  den riffai said he feel so lonely.. the company feels so dull when we r gone.. den i said gt our books, biscuits and photos to refer mah.. den he wont be tat lonely... den he said he miz the days when we laughed, ate together...he oso said he cant eat the sweets i gave him liao.. den i said he will miz one meh.. den he said will lah.. although we r onli bring together 4 one wk plus, we r like old frds tat noe veri long ago.. like bonded together.. when he said tis i was touched sia... den we meet him for lunch.. seeing mi remind of tat company... feel abit sad when i saw him.. i remembered i send him a msg saying he muz take care muz miz us when we r gone.. or watever tis morning... he replied tat he will definitely miz us one.. say alot of touching things... haiz...

i still remembered i was planning wat i wanna buy after getting my pay... on monday planning to buy tibits to office to eat.. but now.. haiz... realli feel like crying again...

hi... here i am again... today i went wild wild wet alone wif zy... there was fun... after we changed into our swim suit, we went to swim in "shiok river"..  i tink the concept is abit like the one at jurong complex.. aniway.. we soak in the river for quite long.. we juz walked in the river... and played.. and he made up go down in the water.. made mi drank so much water sia.. haha.. aniway we or i tink is mi  having so much fun.. we stayed in the river for duno how many rounds.. den we saw many and many more ppl coming and we went up liao... den we went to queue up for the "ular lah".. tat was fun.. i was scared.. haha... the first time we went up was wif other ppl.. and i the onli gal over there.. so precisely i would scream rite... haha.. for the first few seconds was scary cuz the raft was going down.. i wasnt mentally prepared.. haha... den so i screamed.. and i tink i onli the one screaming.. haha... den the rest of the ride was quite fun... but was so short.... den we went to eat... after eating we went back to look for more rides... den we decided to queue back the "ular lah" tat was fun.....zy said the first time i screamed so loud.. den i told him tat k tis time wont scream but i will grab his hand.. haha.. den tis time again we sat wif other ppl.. tis time round a family of 4, including 2 children.. haha.. den tis time i didnt shout... the first few seconds i was so scared.. tat i squeezed his hands.. haha.. oops... haha.. i dun tink he noticed.. or he did?? aniway tat was fun.. i like tat.. den we went for 2or 3 rounds of tat "shiok river".. tat was fun.. i wanted to play some more but zy say he tired.. so bi bian haf to go back liao lor... haiz.. so fast....

next time i wan play the "the waterworks", "tsunami", "jacuzzi" and "the sidewinder"... i wanna go again... i still gt alot havent play....i wanna go.. next time ask zy to go again... and ask other ppl...

hi.... havent update here veri long huh.... nw school term starts liao.. and i am having my attachment at mediaring pte ltd.... here gt 3 more frds same company as mi... lin, riffai and sandi.. gt 3 more r under same roof... ching hiang, kevin and ahmad...

first day at the company, we r being separateed into grps of 2 and being introduced to our respective supervisors. at first mi and sandi r in the same grp while lin and riffai in the same grp.. they r supposed to do something abt the configuration of CISCo or something lah.. oso duno wat sia.. while sandi and mi doing something abt programming..... den tat  sandi told our supervisor, stupid danny, tat we nt gd in programming and her course is specialised in networking.. den we r being swapped lor.. so mi and lin same grp and she and riffai same grp... and the first day juz gone like tat.. w/o doing anything.. we sat there juz starting at the monitor... and no one even bother abt us...

second day, we r being asked by an engineer here to modify the company's form program... the program he gave us was like... wa lao.. we didnt even seen b4... was so chim... we managed to do sme parts liao.. (but duno correct ant).. but there one part we still cant figure out.. den we asked help from him.. u noe wat he told us... he said, "hmmm... sori but i duno anything abt programming.." wa lao.. wat the hell sia... he duno programming and he asked us to do!!!! okies.. nvm.... den we asked a china here, xintian, to help us... den she said refer to tis refer to tat as reference.. den didnt tell us wat we supposed to do.. wa kaoz... in the end we didnt even noe wat we supposed to do...

the following third day and fourth day and fifth day(which is todae), we juz sat infront of the computer surfing net, msn chat... we did try lah.. search books.. find from the net for solutions.. but HOR we still cant find.. tis is nt we studied leh.. u  noe.. ITO students did.. but nt us.. how we supposed to do..

idiot leh tis company... asked us to do a program which is impt to them.. wat if we anihow do leh... wrong find who?? us ar?? or our LO?? wat the f*** sia... stupid leh... asked us to do someting nt related to wat we learnt... the ppl here oso veri like unfriendly like tat.. our supervisor, tat stupid, didnt even asked us like "how u doing, how u find tis company, can adapt to tis company ma, gt any problems" didnt lor... he didnt even look at us,.... like cant br bothered.. treat us dun exist.... transparent... ppl here sux, company sux, assignment sux.. haiya everything abt here sux... haiz.. 15 more weeks leh..  how to survive like tat... torturing sia.... i wan to go back school... dun wan to stay here.. torture myself... i miss school sia... haiz... sianz... 

conclusion: I HATE MEDIARING...

say so long i havent describe riffai the guy i noe on the day of attachment... he is frd of lin.... he is a humourous guy.. everytime i see his face, i wanna laugh.. duno y... he always will sort of bully mi.. everytime will say "dunno leh", tat is wat i say everytime.. den he will always copy my way of toking... he hor... can say he is a gentleman....many things he do in office proves tat... like everytime we lazy to take our pass we will always ask him to bring along... haha... kinda of bully him.. haha... he is a nice guy...

den to kevin le.. act noe him since cmsk3 but nv tok to him... recently juz noe he is in networking.. everytime our lunch, i will try my meet ching hiang and him for lunch.. he is a funny guy... today he called mi "a 3 yr old baby" many times leh... urgh..... he ar... nv tok to b4.. suddenly like gd frds... haha.... oso start to beat him.. haha.. violent hor... haha....